deydrated.

yes, that can be taken literally and figuratively.

pictures i've been meaning to post

trying to distract myself...

of the day.

today's verse: huh. Yeah.

what profit is it if you gain the world (everything you could ever want)

but lose your soul (the ultimate of eternity)?

- - -

I have perma-dirt. Major.

entering another world

sorry for the lack of posts.

i've joined the throngs in the summer job joys.

of broken backs and aching muscles.

AHHHHHHHHH!

somehow that didn't make me feel better.

my new obsession

THE SKY

for great is Your love, higher
than the heavens;
Your faithfulness reaches to
the skies.

Be exalted, O God, above the
heavens,
and let Your glory be over all
the earth.

Ps 108:4-5

i'm especially fascinated by it at dusk, and when i'm driving.

and lightning shows are breath-taking.

you don't always have to hold your head higher than your heart.

It's strange how one minute you can be laughing so hard you almost cry, and the next you are sad and feel lonely. One minute you can be full of thankfulness and praise, the next minute you feel tired and grumpy.

let my mouth be filled with Your praise
and Your glory ALL the day
then my soul which You have redeemed
SHALL sing unto Your name.
(ps71)

wake me up when it's over.

in the meantime, i'll try to practice hard.

some things.

it takes me forever to fall asleep these days. and my sleep is never a good sleep. i think i need to go back to work.

i can't wait until my exam is over so i can go to work and not feel lazy at home. and i'm getting sick of practicing the same old songs every day. one more week!

there are some people that i really need to hang out with again. cause it's been too long.

youth group is over after tomorrow night. i'm kind of sad about that.

life can seem very boring and repetitive sometimes.

i seem to have forgotten about journaling.

- - - - -

some musings on the whole concept of love in the Bible. love for others.

love is not self-seeking.
love always protects.
loves does no harm to its neighbor.
love must be sincere.
love honors one another above yourself.
love is being devoted to one another.
love is a debt that is never finished being paid.
love fulfills the law.

love is a garment that i often forget to put on.

*exclamation mark*

so that last two times I've been to the mall, I've heard Jack Johnson playing. I like that.


i also heard a version of that song that Justine likes on youtube...the one with Naturally Seven singing on the train.

coldplay is a good example

I don't understand the lyrics of songs until I experience what they are talking about. It happens every time I don't understand a song. Something eventually happens or someone talks about something or I learn something in my life, and then the next time I happen to listen to the song, it makes total sense. And I end up loving the song. And forever after, that song reminds of that particular time in my life.


Pretty cool actually. Like, people learn things in their life that I will learn eventually too. Except that they can put them into mysteriously perfect words and write a song about it. And those mysterious words are opened up suddenly and I'm on the inside of their secret. Sharing in what they've learned.

before the thunder rolled tonight...

Mom's camera is pretty much amazing.

in the dark.

the sound of a train whistle in the dark is very lonely.

on a happier note......oh wait, maybe not.

The 'happier note' referring to the three adorable kittens born on my birthday in our barn.





The 'maybe not' referring to the death of one of the four kittens born a week after my birthday in our barn.

"I Asked the Lord"

sometimes it hurts real bad that she's not here.

she sees love where anyone else would see weeds...Lord search my heart, create in me something clean; dandelions, You see flowers in these weeds.

A blur of yellow spreads out for miles before you. One sees an ugly field of weeds. Weed upon weed upon weed. The other sees a vast array of beautiful flowers. What do you see?

What does God see? Weeds or flowers in your life? If He sees weeds, He can change them into flowers you know. Just go talk to Him. Confess to Him. Pour it out before Him. Ask Him to change those ugly weeds into beautiful flowers.

A glorious array of yellow!

Title attributed to "Dandelions" by FIF.

wrench.

Just when you think you have everything all planned out perfectly.



God changes things.

Reminds you that He's in control, not you.
And His plan is always the best.

even in control of the small things: like camp.

tired?

three weeks to exam.

another LW done.

lots of driving.

burned to a crisp.

warm weather finally.

hanging out with people.


wisdom teeth? ugh.

may 22

amy and monica have officially been out of the country for one month now. is that even possible? i feel like that month has crawled by. but amy? she feels that it has flown by, and doesn't want only two months to be left.

"carol-lee, you're so cool!"

I made a discovery: I don't know how to take compliments.

Yes, I turn red. But I also never know what to say, or deny what someone is complimenting me on, or say something really stupid.

It would probably be beneficial to just say thank you, or leave my reply to the blush on my face.


I don't really like compliments, actually. I mean, I do like them, and I don't let them go to my head, because that's just a really stupid thing to do. But compliments are something I find really awkward to take.