thanks

I enjoy late night walks and late night talks.

gallavanting in Toronto

Dear RoyalOntarioMuseum:

When you put it that way, I might just change my mind about history being my least favorite thing ever. 

Adoration - A Christmas Song from the Newsboys

I’m here with the others 
Who saw the heavens testify 
Now I hang back in the shadows 
I want to come close 
I want to know 
She sees me shivering here 
She smiles and with a nod 
I walk through the mud and straw 
To the newborn Son of God 

Come, let us adore Him 
He has come down to this barren land 
Where we live 
And all I have to give Him 
Is adoration 

He raises a wrinkled hand 
Through the dust and the flies 
Wrapped in rags like we are 
And with barely open eyes 
He takes my finger 
And He won’t let go 
And He won’t let go 
It’s nothing like I knew before 
And it’s all I need to know 

Come, let us adore Him 
He has come down to the world we live in 
And all I have to give Him 
Is adoration 

God is with us here 
Our Immanuel 
God is with us here 
Our Immanuel 

O come let us adore Him 
O come let us adore Him 
Jesus, our Immanuel 
Is with us here and He won’t let go

Walken

I was walken all by myself
I was talken to myself
About you





Wilco is now the new fav.

I don't mind.

I'm in an Asher Lev and R.E.M. mood right now.



Which is REALLY weird for me.

reading, writing, and pondering.

C. S. Lewis was brilliant.

He really was.



It would have been quite thrilling to have met him.

pessimistic

a friend once told me how she told Satan to leave her alone, and it worked.


did you ever think of telling Satan to get lost? to leave you alone?

have you ever thought of telling Satan that God owns your heart and thoughts and emotions and feelings, so he may as well leave because there is no place in your heart and mind for him?

tell him. anytime. anywhere.
i think he'll probably get scared and run away.

think, think, think

Okay, I've decided.


I like that it's snowing.

down for 5+ days

I like getting letters in the mail when I'm sick for a long time.



Wait. Let me re-phrase that:

I like getting letters in the mail.
Anytime.

eyes in the dark.

They belonged to an owl sitting beside the road.
I'm pretty sure that it was beautiful.

beauty.

This is a beautiful harpsichord. I may not like the sound of them very much, but harpsichords served as one of the inspirations of the piano.

Grand pianos are sleek and gorgeous, but harpsichords are so intricately made. I've seen one in real life and they are absolutely amazing in their delicate design. They don't make instruments like that anymore. They are just made by the thousands, all the same, and not really unique.

a message from one Christian to another, while still speaking to myself.

Be happy where you are today.
where you are right now.
this very minute.

Instead of looking to what you will do tomorrow.
or where you plan to be next year.

Enjoy where you are right now.
One moment is too short to waste in waiting for the next moment to come.

Be content.


- a message from one Christian to another
(and a reminder to myself)

whiteness all around.

It's snowing.


I can't decide if I like that or if I'm sad.

discovery in great dimension!

"Pachelbel's Canon" and "Hear, O Lord, and Answer" have the same chords? What?

and "Seek Ye First" and "Hear, O Lord, and Answer" have the same chords?



And they can all be played and/or sang in a round?




CONCLUSION....then why not play them at the same time?

I love making musical discoveries. Even if they've been thought of before, I still like making them myself. And they always make me super excited and ecstatic.

taken and dumped out the window in a cloud of smoke

Our English language means nothing these days.
Fad words like SWEET! and AWESOME! and COOL! have become the grand extent of the average persons vocabulary.

I'd say that is pretty sad. But what can we do about it? Try and use other words? I can't find any!!

That's how awful it is...when we want to try and give our language it's meaning again and stop going with what the fad is, we can't because we've forgotten all the other beautiful words that we could use.

They've been dumped out the window
and forgotten in a cloud of smoke...
...in the dust of fad words.

yup.

Jesus, I've forgotten the words that You have spoken
Promises that burned within my heart have now grown dim
With a doubting heart I follow the paths of earthly wisdom
Forgive me for my unbelief
Renew the fire again


Lord have mercy
Christ have mercy
Lord have mercy on me
Lord have mercy
Christ have mercy
Lord have mercy on me


I have built an altar where I worship things of men
I have taken journeys that have drawn me far from You
Now I am returning to Your mercies ever flowing
Pardon my transgressions
Help me love You again


I have longed to know You and Your tender mercies
Like a river of forgiveness ever flowing without end
I bow my heart before You in the goodness of Your presence
Your grace forever shining
Like a beacon in the night

playing with the camera.

color.

fall smells beautiful.






The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
Psalm 103:8

little nothings

i find myself bored once again. homework is non-existent today.

a friend is blessed with the birth of a daughter today.
another comes home from her honeymoon this week.
another graduates.
another needs prayer.



boredom leaves me no choice but to bask in the sun. the Son of Love. to read of what love is. and memorize of poetry from the Bible.



and suddenly I want to learn more. to love more. to serve more. to let my heart overflow with prayers of praise and thankfulness and confession and intersession.

and i realize that there should be no such thing as boredom. that there can be no such thing as boredom. it's a choice you make.

inspiration lacking

blogger changed while i was away.


and so did i.

somehow i don't have anything to say on here anymore.
and i feel as if i can live without it.


which is somewhat freeing. somewhat sad.
somewhat good. somewhat bad.

yes that rhymed. not intentionally.

this weekend.

i found psalm 38.

wow.

she is home once again.

and i'm very glad about that.





and just to warn you, i think i'll be absent from the blogging world for the rest of the summer cause i'm too tired to get back into it. but i'll be back in the fall FOR SURE.

i caved.

okay...so i admit i'm reading the 'forbidden books'.

:) i'm very much enjoying them.

lately

...light the fire again...

this is for my dear Amy

Zephaniah 3:17

D A G

The Lord your God is with you

D A G

He is mighty to save

D A G

He will take great delight in you

A D

He will quiet you with His love

D A

He will rejoice singing over you

Bm G

He will quiet you with His love

D A

Yes, He will rejoice singing over you

G A D

For with you, He takes great delight

D

He will lighten your load (lighten your load)

A

He will gather you (gather you)

Bm G

He will rescue you, He will rescue you,

D

He will lift you up (lift you up)

A

Wipe away the pain (wipe away the pain)

Bm G

He will rescue you, He will rescue you

Majesty

F^#m E D A D

Here I am humbled by your Majesty

A E
Covered by your grace so free

F^#m E D A D
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man

A E
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

F^#m G^#m A F^#m G^#m A
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine

Bm
Since you laid down your life

D
The greatest sacrifice

Chorus:

A E F^#m D
Majesty, Majesty

A E
Your grace has found me just as I am

F^#m D
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Chorus

St. Patrick's Prayer

St. Patrick & Dwight Beal

Intro: D2 D2/Bb D2/C D2/G (2X)

Dm Bb

Christ be with me and within me

C G

Christ behind me and before

Dm Bb

Christ beside me and to win me

C Dm

Christ to comfort and restore

C Bb+7

Christ beneath me and above me

Gm7 Asus A

Christ in quiet and in danger

Dm Bb

Christ in hearts of all that love me

Gm7 Am7

Christ in mouth of friend and stranger (intro)

F C

Christ in every heart that’s broken

Dm Bb

Christ in every joy and pain

F/A Bb

Christ in every word that’s spoken

Csus C F

Christ in sun and moon and rain

Bb C

Christ in resting and in rising

Dm Bb

Christ the Lord of all my life

F/A Bb

Christ to guide me and to shield me

C D2

Christ protecting me in strife (intro)

You Laid Aside

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hand of those You had created
You took all my sin and same
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted

I really want to worship You my Lord
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever I will love You
You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my hands to You in adoration

deydrated.

yes, that can be taken literally and figuratively.

pictures i've been meaning to post

trying to distract myself...

of the day.

today's verse: huh. Yeah.

what profit is it if you gain the world (everything you could ever want)

but lose your soul (the ultimate of eternity)?

- - -

I have perma-dirt. Major.

entering another world

sorry for the lack of posts.

i've joined the throngs in the summer job joys.

of broken backs and aching muscles.

AHHHHHHHHH!

somehow that didn't make me feel better.

my new obsession

THE SKY

for great is Your love, higher
than the heavens;
Your faithfulness reaches to
the skies.

Be exalted, O God, above the
heavens,
and let Your glory be over all
the earth.

Ps 108:4-5

i'm especially fascinated by it at dusk, and when i'm driving.

and lightning shows are breath-taking.

you don't always have to hold your head higher than your heart.

It's strange how one minute you can be laughing so hard you almost cry, and the next you are sad and feel lonely. One minute you can be full of thankfulness and praise, the next minute you feel tired and grumpy.

let my mouth be filled with Your praise
and Your glory ALL the day
then my soul which You have redeemed
SHALL sing unto Your name.
(ps71)

wake me up when it's over.

in the meantime, i'll try to practice hard.

some things.

it takes me forever to fall asleep these days. and my sleep is never a good sleep. i think i need to go back to work.

i can't wait until my exam is over so i can go to work and not feel lazy at home. and i'm getting sick of practicing the same old songs every day. one more week!

there are some people that i really need to hang out with again. cause it's been too long.

youth group is over after tomorrow night. i'm kind of sad about that.

life can seem very boring and repetitive sometimes.

i seem to have forgotten about journaling.

- - - - -

some musings on the whole concept of love in the Bible. love for others.

love is not self-seeking.
love always protects.
loves does no harm to its neighbor.
love must be sincere.
love honors one another above yourself.
love is being devoted to one another.
love is a debt that is never finished being paid.
love fulfills the law.

love is a garment that i often forget to put on.

*exclamation mark*

so that last two times I've been to the mall, I've heard Jack Johnson playing. I like that.


i also heard a version of that song that Justine likes on youtube...the one with Naturally Seven singing on the train.

coldplay is a good example

I don't understand the lyrics of songs until I experience what they are talking about. It happens every time I don't understand a song. Something eventually happens or someone talks about something or I learn something in my life, and then the next time I happen to listen to the song, it makes total sense. And I end up loving the song. And forever after, that song reminds of that particular time in my life.


Pretty cool actually. Like, people learn things in their life that I will learn eventually too. Except that they can put them into mysteriously perfect words and write a song about it. And those mysterious words are opened up suddenly and I'm on the inside of their secret. Sharing in what they've learned.

before the thunder rolled tonight...

Mom's camera is pretty much amazing.

in the dark.

the sound of a train whistle in the dark is very lonely.

on a happier note......oh wait, maybe not.

The 'happier note' referring to the three adorable kittens born on my birthday in our barn.





The 'maybe not' referring to the death of one of the four kittens born a week after my birthday in our barn.

"I Asked the Lord"

sometimes it hurts real bad that she's not here.

she sees love where anyone else would see weeds...Lord search my heart, create in me something clean; dandelions, You see flowers in these weeds.

A blur of yellow spreads out for miles before you. One sees an ugly field of weeds. Weed upon weed upon weed. The other sees a vast array of beautiful flowers. What do you see?

What does God see? Weeds or flowers in your life? If He sees weeds, He can change them into flowers you know. Just go talk to Him. Confess to Him. Pour it out before Him. Ask Him to change those ugly weeds into beautiful flowers.

A glorious array of yellow!

Title attributed to "Dandelions" by FIF.

wrench.

Just when you think you have everything all planned out perfectly.



God changes things.

Reminds you that He's in control, not you.
And His plan is always the best.

even in control of the small things: like camp.

tired?

three weeks to exam.

another LW done.

lots of driving.

burned to a crisp.

warm weather finally.

hanging out with people.


wisdom teeth? ugh.

may 22

amy and monica have officially been out of the country for one month now. is that even possible? i feel like that month has crawled by. but amy? she feels that it has flown by, and doesn't want only two months to be left.

"carol-lee, you're so cool!"

I made a discovery: I don't know how to take compliments.

Yes, I turn red. But I also never know what to say, or deny what someone is complimenting me on, or say something really stupid.

It would probably be beneficial to just say thank you, or leave my reply to the blush on my face.


I don't really like compliments, actually. I mean, I do like them, and I don't let them go to my head, because that's just a really stupid thing to do. But compliments are something I find really awkward to take.

simple poetry

oh what peace we often forfeit
oh what needless pain we bear
all because we do not carry
everything to God in prayer

in love...

...with my Savior.


Selah singing hymns, reading Psalms, playing praise songs, walking in God's newly budding creation.
Thinking on love. What it means to love. Love people.
Love GOD.
What God's demonstration of love means. In life. For eternity.

Talking to someone across the ocean and hearing the power of God, the crazy things that happen, the learning process of trust and joy in everything.
Considering all the people in my life.


Feeling BLESSED beyond all I could ever think, ever imagine, ever could think to ask for. Why me??? Why Lord? Such irresistible love!

Now to Him who is able to do
immeasurably more
than all we ask
or imagine,
according to His power
that is at work
within us.
Ephesians 3:20

the most excellent way.

why is it that it is so hard? to love people as you should? to be selfless and sincere?


Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Romans 12:9-11

Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. Romans 12:16


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a

one, two, three, or four? which type are you? a combo? me too!

I was reading a book on teaching today. There were a few chapters on character types. I always find these kind of things really interesting...and usually kind of embarrassing once I discover what my 'type' is. In this case, I'm a mix of two...possibly three. What are you???

Type Casting
from
That's a Good Question
by Marienne Uszler

Follow-ers. Some people are literal and factual. They respond to order and are willing to obey rules, but they also expect others to do the same and are uncomfortable, perhaps resentful, if this isn't the case. They try to do what's expected, but they always want to know exactly what's expected, and they're seldom interested to go beyond any stated perimeters. They're usually dependable, and feel they should be rewarded for this. They want to know what and where the boundaries are.


Do-ers. Other people are interested in facts and activities as long as they find them attractive or useful. For them, it's more important to be active than to follow procedures. They like to plunge right in, without preparation or guidance, trusting their instincts. Their interests can be short-lived, and they hope from one activity to another with no care as to whether the activity is completed or successful, often abandoning the activity if they meet any snags.


Think-ers. Then there are the people who, though they can quickly grasp facts and store them for future use, always want to know what's behind the facts, why they're true. They're sometimes willing to follow rules, but often feel that they can jump ahead and second-guess what the outcome should be. They love working alone, thinking through things at their own speed, making their own plans. They enjoy research and can be very persistent tracking down details that seem important to them.


Feel-ers. For some people, feeling are far more important than facts. They follow rules largely because they know that will please others. They wish to like, and be liked. They enjoy working in groups because this offers human interactions and sometimes gives them a chance to help others (which they love to do). Because they live close to their own emotions, they can't function well if they feel that anything is "wrong", or if they or someone else may be "hurting".

on a different note

gmail is the best.


what would i do without gmail and its incredible organization?

the one i miss.

Weirded out.

So when I synced my zen to my computer the first time, it synced all of the playlists from my media player, as well as all the music. One of the playlists was Amy's playlist. I listened to it last night...and started missing her. She had some good, sad songs on it.

Then I get up this morning and check my email and my blog, and find one of Amy's favorite verses on my blog, Zephaniah 3:17.


I love you Amy. And I don't know if you're starting to miss home yet, but I'm starting to miss you.

your shadow walks faster than you

So I think it's pretty sad that I don't have anything to say. Very sad. There must be something!

What have I been doing with my time this week? The time I used to spend pouring over history facts and writing harmony questions? Well...let me tell you. This week has been quite random, different, relaxing, lazy, enjoyable, and strange. If one word could describe it, I think weird would be close to appropriate. Out of the ordinary, that's for sure.

This week, about 2 hours of tuesday, wednesday and friday are/will be spent watching my piano teacher, and a friend of hers, teach. If I get nothing else out of this excersise, I am being inspired. I will be satisfied with that. Being inspired to be a better teacher. To stretch myself and get out of the box in teaching.
But I am not only being inspired. I'm learning tricks too. Teaching tricks. But if you want to know those tricks, you'll have to either take piano lessons from me or have your kids take piano lessons from me in the future. Tehe.

I've also been biking with my brothers everyday...except yesterday 'cause it rained:( Yes, biking. I figure, I have to get back into shape, before I go to work again and they kill me the first day! I'm pretty sure that would happen, because I've been "sitting around" all winter, either at my desk, at a piano, in a church pew, in a car, or on the couch. That's a lot of sitting. So, bring on the sun and get me on that bike!!

Hmm...what else. Oh! I made two random, surprise visits. One was made to Nadine. That was fun...she was kind of speechless when she opened the door. 'Twas a rare sight. 'What are you doing here?'...and Dan and Chris laughing because they already knew I was coming. Love you Nadine! The other visit was made to Anton...who else? Well, it was only half a surprise, cause we kind of talked about me coming on Tuesday night, but we didn't really confirm it. I called his mom and then I was there before he got home from work. Yup. I've decided that I should do surprise visits more often. They're a lot of fun!! Try it sometime.

I also started reading C.S.Lewis's Screwtape Letters. All I can say about that is 'wow.' They're a must-read. How did Lewis come up with this stuff? Is it truly how demon's work? They sure are crafty, and I definitely don't ever want to let them twist my thoughts in such ways. (haha...did you know that C.S.Lewis used the phrase "ish"??)

The best thing, where it is possible, is to keep the patient (we are reffered to as 'patients'!) from the serious intention of praying altogether...if this fails, you must fall back on a subtler misdirection of his intention...The simplest is to turn their gaze away from Him towards themselves. Keep them watching their own minds and trying to produce feelings there by the action of their own wills...But even if He defeats your first attempt at misdirection, we have a subtler weapon. The humans do not start from that direct perception of Him which we, unhappily, cannot avoid...If you examine the object to which he is attending, you will find that it is a composite object containing many quite ridiculous ingredients. There will be images derived from pictures of the Enemy (God.) as He appeared during the discreditable episode known as the Incarnation...I have known cases where what the patient called his "God" was actually located - up and to the left at the corner of the bedroom ceiling, or inside his own head, or in a crucifix on the wall. But whatever the nature of the composite object, you must keep him praying to it. - page 195-96

But anyway, read the whole book for yourself sometime. Add it to your summer reading list.

Other random things: I called Amy, laid on the trampoline and tried to burn, read my Bible on the trampoline even though it was a little chilly, drove Kim to drivers-ed, got a Birthday card in the mail from Steve and Amy (and baby!), listened/listening to lots of Jack Johnson and Coldplay.


I hope that satisfies my blog for a while. Because I've run out of things to say again.

la de dah

Could it be possible? Has it actually happened?


I have nothing to post.
Thus, the lack of posts in the past few days.

dear friends and family

thank you for your support and encouragement and interest in the exam prep and writing the exams. God bless you all for blessing me through you.

love carol-lee

dear brittni

thank you for the past two sundays. of hanging out and talking and laughing and being tired and sharing. i love you.

love carol-lee

huzzah!

did 'em both.

freedom!!!...ish. two more in June......but no more history..or harmony!!



yesh! (the 'h' was intentional:P)




i actually didn't mind the harmony....but, it was time-consuming.

little joys

oh look...you're so proud of me!!!

:)
haha

- - - - - - - - -

today i saw a small clump of tulips growing on the side of the road right in the middle of nowhere. made me happy.

you have heard it said...

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!

Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:4-7



Rejoice? Even in exams? Yes. Even in exams. Rejoice because I am with you.

Don't be anxious? Pray? Yes. My peace will guard your heart and mind. Just present your fears and stress and worries to Me. I'll take care of everything.



In three days two of four exams are done!

news!

For an update from Amy and Monica, check out their blog. They finally posted again!

with thanksgiving I'll be a living sanctuary for You.

The last five days have flown by. They consisted of AOC, hanging out with some friends on Sunday, and my 20th birthday. I learned some things. Things I needed to be reminded of.





One of those things is that people are something to cherish. I'm not just talking about people that are your friends. By people I mean people that you are close with, people that you talk to a few times a year, people you've only heard of, people you've never talked to, people you notice that may need a friend, people you have poured your heart out to, people you share struggles with, people who encourage you, people you do Bible study with, people who show God's love in their character and smile.

I came in contact with so many people this weekend. In different ways, for different reasons. Accompanying a choir. Helping lead alto sectionals. Singing in a choir. Doing auditions. Co-leading a Bible study group. Leader devotions. Playing piano and singing background vocals at Coffee House. Hanging around. Dancing. Playing games. Eating. Having a sore wrist. Visiting the same church. Celebrating my birthday. Being friends. Sharing struggles. Walking. Laughing.

All the people that I talked to, sat with, sang with, led with, laughed with, walked with, shared with, were encouraging to me in different ways. God just really showed me how beautiful people are. And how unique and special each person is. And I shared two things with them all that unified us. God and/or music.






- - -

Yesterday was probably one of my favorite birthdays ever. I was treated like a queen. I received more phone calls than I ever have on a birthday. Amy Williamson, my sister Amy, Nadine and Chris, Grandma. I received some very special emails from Brittni, Kathleen and Jacinda. I received a nice card from the Lodder family (and I found a video on my camera from them too:P). My family gave me some sweet gifts, my mom made me an amazing dinner, my sister made me a delicious cake, my grandparents came over to visit. And my boyfriend started working a day late just so he could come and visit me, plus he gave me a really sweet gift:)

But in all that, once again I was reminded just how special people are. Especially friends. Sisters and brothers in Christ. And also how much God loves me. And encourages me and teaches me through all these people. He loves me. And guides me. And takes care of me.

- - -

Oh, the depths of the riches of
the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable are His judgments,
and His paths beyond tracing out!
Who has known the mind of the Lord?
Or who has been His counselor?
Who has ever given to God,
that God should repay him?
For from Him and through Him
and to Him are all things.
To Him be the glory forever!
Amen.
- Romans 11:33-36

time, it's changing me

On Monday, I will turn 20. My 21st year of life. Learning and growing. Falling and being picked up again. Loving and hurting. Praising and neglecting. Learning and cherishing.

Many things have happened to me in 20 years. I can't even begin to think about it all. Even the last five years have brought drastic changes. Challenges. What will the next 20 years bring?

the fruit of the Spirit is

love
joy
peace
patience
kindness
goodness
faithfulness
gentleness
self-control

against such there is no law
- galatians 5:22-23

Lord, I don't know where all this is going.

We finally had a Living Worship practice again last night. It was a nice one. I didn't realize how much I missed it until I walked in the door and Tyler gave me a huge hug before I could even put my violin case down...and stepped on the foot in the process:) Hugs from Cassy and Brittni. Doing devotions together again. Talking about ways to improve musically, socially, and the integration of those two things. Learning our 'theme' song. Playing music. Singing praises. Realizing once again why we do what we do. "You're the reason why". Laughing at each other. Practicing humility. Being encouraged by this group of friends.

Hearing Justine xylo again. Hearing Cassy and Sarah harmonizing beautifully together. Watching Tyler and Anton having a blast together. Liking Ryan's creativity. Loving Candice's beautiful character. Appreciating Kevin's desire for us to always grow in "musical excellence". Holding the ever-growing Jakob.


We gather here, to worship You. Draw near to us, as we draw near to You. May the songs we bring, may the words we sing, be true.

it's a week today.

and i finally called her.


it was good.

something is happening to my brain

i keep forgetting things.


like that i had to go out this morning.
or that i had to teach this afternoon.

my memory is going out the door.
this has never happened to me before.

whatever will i do?

juggernaut - crushing force: a force that is relentlessly destructive, crushing, and insensitive

Juggernaut, Juggernaut

This seems too big for me

hulking monstrosity

too late to get out now

And like the speed of sound

this thing has brought me down

I don’t remember how

I want to be free

but Juggernaut is killing me

Freedom like a song

The weak shall be made strong

I may sink before I swim

but I’m not giving in to you

Juggernaut, Juggernaut

Beneath machinery

specter of treachery

and I’ve lost everything

And I am getting out

the shadow of my doubt

is suffocating

my own worst enemy

this Juggernaut is killing me

From machines that I have made

I’ve become the slave

but I’ve been carried along

freedom like a song

Freedom lifts me like a song

when the weak shall be made strong...

these exams are pushing me down. i don't remember how. a crushing force.

but i will not let it get me down. freedom like a song. Christ Jesus. in my weakness i can be strong.


in Christ Jesus I can have courage. strength. freedom. joy. peace.

Let my mouth be filled with Your praise and with Your glory all the day. Psalm 71:8

You open Your hand
And satisfy the desire of every living thing.
Psalm 145:16

It is God who arms me with strength,
And makes my way perfect.
He makes my feet like the feet of deer,
And sets me on my high places.
Psalm 18:32-33

But it is good for me to draw near to God;
I have put my trust in the Lord God,
That I may declare all Your works.
Psalm 73:28

Anne of Green Gables

I never thought I'd wear a dress like this ever again.

But...alas, my fate.




Now, if I can just master a dreamy, romantic character, I'll be all set!

sometimes the bravest thing of all is to hope.

so basically

brave saint saturn

says it all

i'm glad for a band like them




real songs, sad songs, heart songs, tearful songs, hopeful songs, songs to sing at the top of your lungs, everyday songs, amazing songs

just close your eyes 'til daylight comes

here's a tip:


if you struggle with emotions, go to bed. sleep.



it works everytime.:)



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Mom talked to Monica on the phone (Amy was in the shower). They are there safely, at Manuel's house in Lilongwe. They go to Nkomah, their home for the next three months, tomorrow. Huge smile!!

i believe the sun also rises, dries our tears, bringing the blue skies of day...driving the darkness away, so far away.

at least that's what i want to believe.

my dreams are haunted by her face.

she's gone.

emotions run too high.



The Lord your God is with you. Zeph 3:17


I am with you. I will strengthen you. Is 41:10

malawi...here she comes.

too many goodbyes. many tears.

she leaves tonight. i'll miss her.

ha-yu-yuh!

and it begins to unfold slowly...


;)

sweat and soap...

...two things included in washing a car.

the soap to wash the car.
the sweat as a result of washing the car vigorously.



i like washing vehicles...most of the time.

:)

not so picture perfect.

Sitting here in my room with all three windows wide open. Hearing the birds, the waterfall outside my window. Feeling the wonderful warmth invade my room. Seeing the bright sun. Hearing an airplane go by. Wind chimes. And every so often a construction vehicle.

Studying like mad, writing practice exams, getting stressed. Needing a massage.

Looking at the two suitcases on the floor of my room slowly filling up and counting - only 4 more days?

Reading Romans 8:31-39 and feeling loved and cared for - by my Savior.


Yes. It is spring time. God is faithful. He will see me through it all. He is blessing me. Even in the little things.



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Please comment to the previous post!!

godly advise is the request

I little while ago, someone asked me this question. I would like to open it up to the rest of you to help me in giving advise.

If a friend were to ask you advice, and on your response, rip you apart for 'intruding' on their business, saying that they had never asked you for advice (though you can recall the precise words they said to you, asking for it), what would you do? I'm stuck in a situation like this, and unsure as of how to handle such reaction to what I thought was help...

Thank you in advance. It is much appreciated!

muscular damage

Did I fail to mention that?

Oh dear. Well, let me do so now. I am having a hard time walking today...hobbling around is the best I can do. Too much inactivity, then a burst of two hours of hard-core dancing, and then too much inactivity is not so good for me. My muscles are screaming at me!

sore feet and dancing shoes

We went to a folk dance last night...I decided to go at the very last minute.

It was worth it, despite the blisters I now have. And the sore feet. Despite the fact that my face was so red it turned purple from being so warm.

Live music. Bagpipes!
Dancing with friends.
Thanks for being my partner Andrea:) Ya'll were great!

I like the way that bagpipes drone.

And they are so bright and cool looking:)

Cowboy boots look fun to dance in when it comes time to stomp. But they look sore. And are apparently hard to walk in if you're not used to it.

abandoned.

abandoned house abandoned barn.

who were they? what happened? how old is it?



come walking with me there sometime.

I tried to upload pictures, but it isn't working.

huzzah...?

really stupid question:

what is that supposed to mean anyway? (especially you Muis people!!)

this verse is key...

in all things pertaining to people. Because there is sin in the world, and God commands us to do this.


look at the elements:

prayer
forgiveness
confession
healing
others
you
and behind it all is GOD


Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed.
-James 5:16a


I wonder why we sometimes forget that?


Relationships/friendships with people, no matter who they are, are so complex. And God designed it that way.




I've been realizing that in SO many of mine lately. And God cares for you in each one of them...just not necessarily in the way you want.

but the LORD is in His holy temple. let all the earth keep silence before Him.
- Habakkuk 2:20

to the youth in my church.

I am a member...a leader!...of an amazing youth group. Truly.


Sometimes I'm blind to that though. But when you think about all the amazing people in ours, and you hear about other youth groups...



I am sooo blessed!

my favorite things

I like it when you get into bed at night and you hear rain on the window. Just a soft patter...and then you hear a slight rumble in the distance.

It makes me feel happy and cozy inside.

a bit of nonsense.

I like chocolate chips.
I like cookie dough.
I like chocolate chip cookie dough.

I like it before it's baked.
I like them when it just comes out of the oven.


I like them even when they're a week old.



Baking chocolate chips cookies is just a pleasure!

20

happy 20th Cassy!

i think i'm getting a burn.

I've just been sitting in the sun with my pants rolled up and my eyes all squinty, studying. It's wonderful.

I'm feeling a little toasty...yay!

le lac

a lake with ice on it that is slowly melting away from a long winter is so beautiful.

joshua 1:9...again

Have I not commanded you?

Be STRONG and COURAGEOUS.

Do not be terrified;

do not be discouraged,

for

the Lord your God WILL

be WITH YOU

wherever

you go.

this was spoken to Joshua when took over Moses' position and had to take the promised land.

pretty amazing verse!

from nadine.

Ephesians 6 - the spiritual armor

for your information.

I'm just really enjoying Coldplay right now.


I still think it's funny that I like them, because way-back-when, I was really annoyed with the fact that everyone loved them so much. And now look at me, listening to them all the time. Crazy girl.


I also like Jars of Clay's Good Monsters Cd. A lot.

*happy sigh*

spring is finally here.

which means driving with the windows open again!!!!!

hebrews 12 verse 2

Fix your eyes on Jesus.





um, yeah.

arg.

I want an NIV Bible.




not need. just want.

so I don't have to use Biblegateway.com for one anymore:)

Psalm 27 niv

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.

3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.

4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.

8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek.

9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
O God my Savior.

10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.

11 Teach me your way, O LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.

12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.

13 I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.

14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.